Today I held on to you for just a bit longer before bedtime.<\/p>\n
We were going through our normal routines and I was soaking up the remaining drops of you for the day.\u00a0 I was saying my prayers for you, as usual, but suddenly the moment shifted.\u00a0 I’m not sure what snapped me out of my normal train of thought, but suddenly I realized I was in holy territory.\u00a0 Snuggled up in that glider in the corner, I was completely overcome by the awareness of what an absolute treasure you are to me.\u00a0 My senses went on high alert and I tried to absorb every detail I could in that time.\u00a0 I listened to your sweet, shallow breaths and watched your chest rise and fall.\u00a0 I smiled at your legs stretched out with your feet crossed at the ankles.\u00a0 I felt your precious hand rubbing mine and your hair tickling my arm.\u00a0 Exhausted from a day filled with adventures, you melted into my lap and for but a brief moment, we were one.\u00a0 I could just barely make out your profile in the light being cast from the hall and it literally took my breath away.\u00a0 I thanked God over and over for this day, for this gift of you, and for the divine privilege of being your mama.<\/p>\n
You are living grace to me.<\/p>\n
For with all of my shortcomings, all of my flaws, my mistakes, my missteps…<\/p>\n
With all of the ways I fall short, say the wrong things, and fail to love as selflessly as I so wish I could…<\/p>\n
With the knowledge of every bit of this, God still gave me you.<\/p>\n
Grace.<\/p>\n
Divine grace and something I don’t ever want to take for granted.<\/p>\n
I didn’t deserve you, but here you are…the weight of you in my arms reminding me of how incredibly blessed I am to be a child of His and a mama of yours.<\/p>\n
So tonight, I lingered.\u00a0 I closed my eyes and held on to you for just a little bit longer.\u00a0 I breathed you in and with that, drew as close to heaven as humanly possible and said thank you for the millionth time for God’s incredible gift of you to me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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